As many of you know I posted “I Surrender” in April about my Breast Cancer diagnosis. My radiation treatments ended Monday, June 12th and two weeks later, we were off for an 11 day trip to Maui. Boy was this a welcome change! Geared with my rash guards and Coola Suncare for super-duper protection, I started my journey of healing. I felt different, I felt alone, I felt like people didn’t take my diagnosis seriously, and I was scared. I thought a lot about my time at Mercy Cancer Center and the women I saw come and go through those doors. Women with unbelievable strength.
These women blazed the trail for me and I was not alone.I decided that upon my return from Hawaii things would be different. I wanted a calmer, more content, and stronger life for myself, so I started my walking routine again – thank you Sophie my delightful Boxer girl for loving me and being excited everyday for a good walk! I also started exercising again. I mean really working at it, and I feel great! Listening to my doctors is key, plus I am researching more homeopathic options for better health. I’ve always eaten well, drink tons of water, and practice yoga, yet I still got this crazy disease that will forever be a part of me. This leaves me scratching my head and asking “Why me”?
My direction? Enjoy each day, practice wellness, play, laugh, appreciated those around me, and try to live a full life. I am enjoying filling my editorial calendar full of fun and exciting things to share with you, getting my daughter ready for a new school year, and readying my house for Fall – my favorite time of the year. Not only are we making some exciting changes to Sipped in California, I am beefing up my philanthropic business Half Full Productions – Living an Inspired Life. I’ve been on hold too long. Time for the new, the unknown, and most importantly, quality time with my family.
So there it is…My own personal update. I’m here and I feel good!Cheers!
TODAY I SURRENDER
Today I am ready to share a part of my life many do not know. Not only do I enjoy posting about our California travels and experiences here on Sipped in California, I’m a Mom to a beautiful blue eyed six-year-old. I am a room parent, art docent, kinder events chair, and Spring Auction Donation Co-Chair at her school. I defend, support, and promote various charities through Half Full Productions. I am a wife, a Sister, a Daughter, and a doggy mama. And now, I have Breast Cancer.
Sharing this news is complicated and a little scary. I am lucky. Stage 0 Intraductal Carcinoma in situ; 2 surgeries completed, radiation is in the works, no chemo, and five years of hormone therapy. The initial shock and the unknowns are unnerving, but staying positive and true to myself is my clear direction.
After a visit to my oncologist yesterday, it is evident that I need to slow down. The anxiety and frustration have upped my blood pressure and now it’s time to pay attention to what I need.
Our Social Media identity shows the best version of our lives, and now you have seen my not-so-best version. I am not telling you this for sympathy. I am merely putting my thoughts to paper and freeing myself of urgencies, demands and expectations. The things I do at my daughter’s school have taken it’s toll now that I am dealing with cancer and it’s time to slow down. Get your priorities straight girl!
Today I surrender. I surrender the “too quick to say yes” person that I have become. I vow to take care….for me, my little girl, my husband, and my family.
I will continue to post on Sipped in California. I love it, it is my passion. If you find me quiet for a little while, now you’ll know why.
Today I surrender.
May 6, 2016
This morning my daughter was full of questions about where Stella was going to go, who would be there to help her, and if her eyes would be open. It has been hard for me to walk her through the process of letting go of Stella, but for Karly, it's like a send off party! We have beads, and bracelets, one of Stella toys, and a book all packed into a little girls purse ready to share with Stella on her day. I am taking Karly's lead and looking at this as a joyous occasion. I think Stella feels our good energy and is confident that she can go now.
We have been pulling out photos and albums marking Stella's 12 years with us. It's been fun to revisit these fun times and see a spark in Stella's eyes as she looks on with us.
It is with great gratitude that we say Thank You to our sweet boxer girl this week for we will help her over the Rainbow Bridge on Monday...beads, bracelets, toys, and all!